Chapter 3 Dying

In the distant mountains, you can hear chickens and dogs. It seems to be muddy after the first rain. The earth is recovering. , and the cooing sound of a hen laying an egg.

Shen Qingci woke up suddenly and slammed his head on the ground.

She instinctively touched her head, but she was stunned for a moment, and then looked at her hand in surprise, her hand...

Small and short, and soft and meaty.

This is……

She widened her eyes, looked around hard, then stood up and ran forward.

She was four, her four-year-old hand, and her mother who died when she was four.

Pushing open the shabby door, in her vague memory, it was this wooden door that could not be broken again and would leak air. That year, she sat in front of the door, and she was so hungry. , She was also hungry and crying, crying piercingly. If she cried before, her mother would definitely come out, but that day her mother didn't wake up to coax her or hug her.

The door opened, and there was a musty smell inside, as well as the precipitation of medicinal stones. Her nose is naturally sensitive, and can recognize hundreds of flavors and thousands of incense, so sometimes she can distinguish a lot from the smell, and she just now Smell, is the smell of mother.

This is how she remembered the smell of her mother, no matter what her mother became in the end, what she remembered in her heart for the rest of her life was the smell of Mother Xiangxiang.

"A Ning... A... Ning..."

A tattered wooden bed was just piled with black cotton wool, and there lay a woman who was described as withered. Her face was like golden paper, and there were bloodstains on the corners of her lips. She stretched out to the door with difficulty. own skinny hands.

"A Ning, come here, come here, mother."

Shen Qingci stood on the spot, her small hands were also clinging to the door frame. There are not many people in this world who call her A Ning. Her name is Shen Qingci. The cream is dotted with lacquer, like a pear flower in full bloom.

But the current mother made her afraid, so she ran away in her last life. She was afraid of her, and she didn't dare to see her. This was also the thing she regretted the most in her life. She didn't see her for the last time.

Since then, every time she dreamed back at midnight, she thought, if she could come forward, if she could hold her mother's hand, if she could let her hug her, would she be able to leave with peace of mind? Some, the mother will not be dead, and she will remember the appearance of the mother, will remember the smell of the mother, she can know all kinds of flavors, but the only thing is to lose the taste of the mother.

Although she still knew what all this was, whether it was her dreaming or a new reincarnation, she had already stepped forward with her feet and ran over.

"A Ning..." The skinny woman is her mother, the mother's name is Lou Xuefei, the direct daughter of the Lou family, and the only daughter of her grandfather... And she is also the mother's only daughter, her name is Shen Qingci, her baby name , A Ning.

"A Ning, come here..."

Lou Xuefei coughed again, and her throat was full of fishy sweetness again, and she swallowed the fishy sweetness forcefully, just not wanting to scare her four-year-old daughter. She knew that her time was running out, but how could she If she can die, how dare she die, her little A Ning is only four years old, she still doesn't understand, how can she be such a mother, leaving her little daughter alone in this world, alone, and she doesn't know the end How to be abused to death.

Shen Qingci ran over and also held the woman's thin hand.

"A Ning, mother's little A Ning."

When Lou Xuefei saw his daughter's small but dusty appearance, he was not only sad, but coughed again, almost unable to stop.

She finally stopped coughing and saw that her daughter was still obediently in front of her.

"Mother's little Ning, don't be afraid of mother, mother won't hurt you," she gently held her daughter's little hand, and she was about to lose her grip.

Everyone in this world may hurt you, but my mother will not. In this life, my mother loves you the most, and I am most sorry for you.

Shen Qingci's nose was sour. She put her little face on Lou Xuefei's thin hand. At that moment, she felt her mother's body temperature, remembered the fragrance of her body, and also remembered her mother's face.

She raised her face, then stretched out her little arm.

"Mother, give me a hug."

Lou Xuefei's tears rolled down uncontrollably and blurred her eyes. Her little A Ning had not been so close to her in a long time. She knew that this child's sense of smell was very sensitive, and he could also know all kinds of flavors. It's because she is sick now and smells bad all over, so she stopped approaching her very early.

Now her little Ning actually let her hold her, she tried hard to sit up, but she couldn't even lift up the strength.

Shen Qingci kicked off his little shoes and climbed onto the shabby bed that Lou Xuefei was lying on. Who would have thought that Lou Xuefei, the daughter of Lou's family who was wealthy and the most beautiful in Beijing back then, is now unexpectedly Lying here half-dead, even her bright face turned withered.

Lou Xuefei was embarrassed to hug her daughter's small body. Poor, her little Ning has been thin to a handful of bones. She exchanged her bracelet for three meals a day for a family, and I don't know if they sent them. Come here, her little Ning hasn't eaten, is she hungry?

Shen Qingci put her little face on Lou Xuefei's face, her mother's face was warm and her body was fragrant, she pinched her little fingers, and her little hands also tightly grasped Lou Xuefei's clothes.

This is the smell of her mother, but she is about to smell it soon. She knows that her mother is about to die, and even the doctor said that it is useless to return to the sky, and she will soon lose her mother.

Lou Xuefei just choked her voice, she gently stroked her daughter's soft but dusty hair, Ah Ning, don't be afraid, she hugged her daughter carefully, and protected her daughter with everything she had in her lifetime. Regret, but in the end she still has to go first.

"A Ning, don't be afraid, mother will watch you from the sky."

Shen Qingci suddenly burst into tears, even the tears she had never shed in her previous life. She wants a mother, she doesn't want her to die, she doesn't want to be a child without a mother, if she has a mother, she won't suffer that much. If she suffers, she will not be beaten to death by random sticks in the end, because she has no mother to protect her, because she has no mother to teach her, and no one teaches her how to live and how to behave.

So she went the wrong way, she killed too many people, and even she herself was killed.

She wants a mother, she wants a mother.

"A Ning, don't be afraid," Lou Xuefei still said, "Daddy will find us A Ning, my brother and sister also love A Ning, A Ning has to be good, you have to listen to Daddy, you know?"