Chapter 279: Suicide Note
After daybreak, Doctor Yu came to check Xie Tingzhou's pulse.
Xie Tingzhou's condition did not improve. This was a serious illness that could not be cured in a day or two.
Xie Tingzhou took the medicine and fell asleep again. Shen Yu followed Doctor Yu out and closed the door.
The two walked to the other side of the eaves, and Shen Yu spoke, "Doctor Yu, thank you for your hard work."
Doctor Yu was flattered and bowed his hands, "I dare not, I will do my job, and the prince's health is my responsibility."
Shen Yu said, "I still have to thank you. I am not with him, and Doctor Yu has worked hard to take care of me."
Shen Yu cried for a long time in the middle of the night, and now her eyes are still red and swollen. Doctor Yu just thought she was worried about Xie Tingzhou's health. He took a look and dared not offend again, and replied with his head down.
"The prince needs to take time to recover from this illness. There is no rush. Princess, please relax. I will do my best."
Shen Yu looked at the snow under the dead tree, "I should have come back earlier."
Doctor Yu heard self-blame in her tone and hurriedly persuaded her, "Princess, don't blame yourself. The prince was holding on all the way. When he heard the news of the princess's disappearance, he just couldn't hold on anymore. It's not the princess's fault."
Shen Yu frowned, "Doctor Yu, if there is anything I need to pay attention to, just tell me directly, so I can be careful."
There are servants at home, and the guards are used to serving, so there is no shortage of manpower, but Shen Yu still feels more at ease knowing it herself.
Doctor Yu roughly said what needs to be paid attention to and withdrew. He walked out of the courtyard with the medicine box. Suddenly, a person jumped out from the corridor next to him and blocked him.
Doctor Yu patted his chest, "You scared me. Is General Shen here to find the princess?"
"No." Shen Zhao said with a gloomy face, "I'm looking for you."
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This year seems to be particularly long.
Xie Tingzhou was in poor health and was not suitable for traveling around. Besides, there was nothing urgent at the moment, and it was the end of the year, so he simply stayed in Ganzhou.
Xie Tingzhou was able to get out of bed these days.
The best military craftsman of Qingyun Guard made a reclining chair and placed it by the window, with a thick mattress on it. Sometimes Xie Tingzhou could lie on it to bask in the warm winter sun.
Xie Tingzhou was free, and Shen Yu had to deal with post-war military affairs every day.
The maid stood at the door holding the clothes and did not dare to go in without permission. She handed the clothes to Xifeng, and Xifeng took the things in.
Xie Tingzhou was reading a book on the reclining chair. When he saw Xifeng come in, he glanced at the things in his hand and asked, "Is it the princess's armor?"
"Yes." Xifeng replied, "The maid washed it and sent it to me."
"Give it to me."
Xie Tingzhou put down the book, picked up Shen Yu's armor and spread it on his knees, and began to check it bit by bit.
A long time ago, before they got married, he also looked at her clothes to see if she was injured. Now he can also see the traces of weapons from her armor.
There are some knife marks on the armor, and the back armor is dented, but fortunately it is not broken, thanks to the old prince for using the best materials and the best military craftsmen to make the armor.
Xie Tingzhou couldn't help but feel distressed when he saw it, and put the armor on his knees to relax.
Shen Yu came back after handling military affairs, stepped into the room and saw such a scene, and her heart suddenly sank.
Damn, she forgot a very important thing.
"It's just armor, nothing to see." Shen Yu walked over, picked up the armor and was about to put it in the box.
Xie Tingzhou looked at her back, "It's just armor, what's wrong with taking a look?"
Shen Yu closed the box and turned back to say, "Isn't it because I'm afraid you'll feel sorry for me?"
Xie Tingzhou glanced at her, "You still know I'll feel sorry for you?"
Shen Yu approached and squatted beside him, tapping his chest with her finger, "I'll give you this sentence intact."
Xie Tingzhou smiled faintly, "You're sharp-tongued."
"The New Year will be here in a few days." Shen Yu suddenly said, "There's no New Year atmosphere here."
"It's the same as the palace in Shengjing." Xie Tingzhou looked out the window.
Last year during the New Year, the palace in Shengjing was also so deserted. They ate two bowls of noodles cooked by Shen Yu in the palace in Shengjing. At that time, no one thought that they would become an inseparable part of each other.
"Changliu likes to toss around." Shen Yu stood up and said, "I asked him and Si Xi to set up the decoration, and he must be happy."
Xie Tingzhou watched Shen Yu run out, lifted the blanket and stood up, and took the armor out of the box again.
Shen Yu arranged it in a short while. Changliu and Sixi were still children, and they took the silver and ran away quickly.
Xifeng brought the medicine again. Shen Yu took the medicine into the room. When she entered the door, she glanced at Xie Tingzhou and saw that the armor was on his legs again.
"Why did you turn it out again?"
Shen Yu put the medicine tray on the table, picked up the bowl to test the temperature, and it was still a little hot.
Xie Tingzhou did not answer her. The room was too quiet. Shen Yu finally noticed something strange.
She turned her head and saw Xie Tingzhou's eyes half-closed, and the light coming in from the window made his face pale.
Shen Yu swallowed her saliva, walked over guiltily, picked up the armor, and put it back in the box.
When she turned around, she saw Xie Tingzhou standing up and walking towards her, holding a thin piece of paper in his lowered hand.
Shen Yu's heart was immediately tightened, but he still saw it.
Xie Tingzhou approached her, "And this."
Shen Yu looked at the thing he handed over, and didn't dare to reach out to take it.
Xie Tingzhou stared at her face without saying a word until she slowly raised her hand. His fingertips loosened, and the letter paper with words written on both sides brushed past her fingers and fell down.
"Shen Yu." Xie Tingzhou said: "You have a cruel heart."
The curtain of the bedroom was lifted and fell, and Shen Yu was still standing there.
She picked up the letter on the ground and hated herself for thinking so carefully.
She was not invincible, so she thought about the possibility of losing this battle in advance.
Shen Yu was afraid that she would not be able to leave him a message if she lost the battle, so she wrote a suicide note. She was also afraid that the suicide note would be damaged, so she learned from the bandits in Qichang and carefully sealed the suicide note with wax in the interlayer of the armor.
After returning, Shen Yu completely forgot about it until she saw Xie Tingzhou holding the armor to check it, so she quickly put it in the box before he noticed it.
But it still couldn't escape his eyes.
Xie Tingzhou called her full name just now, and he was really angry and heartbroken.
There is nothing more uncomfortable than seeing the last words of a lover. Shen Yu put herself in his shoes and thought about it. If she saw Xie Tingzhou's last words, she would definitely not be able to bear it.
The medicine on the table has not been taken yet, and it will get cold if it is left.
Shen Yu brought the medicine in, sat beside the bed and whispered, "Drink the medicine first, okay?"
Xie Tingzhou lay on the couch with his back to her, without speaking or moving.
Shen Yu waited for a while with the medicine in her hand. Seeing that he was determined to ignore her, she took the medicine out to the kitchen to heat it up. It was just right to take this time to think about how to coax him later.
Xie Tingzhou heard the sound of the door closing, slowly opened his eyes, and his eyes were scarlet.
Soldiers would leave a message for their families before going to war. She thought that she might die on the battlefield, so she left him a suicide note.
She must have pretended to be strong in every place where the sun shone, and refused to show a trace of timidity in front of the soldiers, but she was really afraid in the deserted night.
So the handwriting on the letter paper was different in weight. She must have thought of something and added it again, fearing that she could not finish saying it to him.
Xie Tingzhou's heart hurt badly.