Chapter 84 Gwen's Initiative

Raymond lowered his head and did not answer the girl immediately, but his hand held Gwen's forearm tighter. After a long while, he replied: "Why is it meaningless?"

"The day I went to your house to deliver pizza..." Gwen did not answer Raymond directly. The girl steeled herself and narrated slowly: "You said everything I did was meaningless to this society."

"No..." Raymond put his other hand on the back of Gwen's hand, but before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by the girl:

"Later, you said that the existence of ghost spiders was just a placebo given by the government for blue-collar workers."

The girl lowered her head, and Raymond watched the golden sunlight shining through the girl's blond hair. In the moment of silence, the light seemed to turn into particles, floating in the air of the ward - between the two of them. The atmosphere seemed to be still.

"Later, I started talking about the power of ordinary people, so I wanted to organize ordinary people through the Spider-Woman forum..." Gwen speeded up her speech slightly, "But I found that no one seemed to care about what Spider-Woman did. "

"Kingpin saved me. He said that saving me was just a favor sold to you. He didn't care whether I lived or died, nor what I did..." When Gwen said this, The voice was a little trembling, and Raymond could faintly hear a hint of crying in the girl's voice——

She turned to look at him, and Raymond could read the despair in the girl's eyes - in the aqua blue eyes, he almost felt that they were a sea of ​​sadness: "I really Is it... insignificant?"

The death of Peter Parker made Gwen Stacy insist that what she had received was a valuable gift and that she had to do something for this specialness - but if it was all meaningless...

If what he did was meaningless, then was Peter Parker's death also meaningless? Are all her efforts, blood, and sacrifices meaningless? Her break with her father was pointless...she, Gwen Stacy, was pointless? !

Thinking of this, Gwen shuddered, and she turned her gaze to the silent Raymond. At this time, Gwen was not the powerful Spider-Woman, she was just a little girl who opened the door of her home and glimpsed the dark and cold world outside.

As Gwen Stacy, she could retreat home and continue to dream up her most realistic house plans in that warm little house with a burning fireplace, pretending that she could change something - but she knew in her heart that I would never dare to step into that world.

Raymond held the girl's hand. Gwen's hand was cold, but Raymond's was warm. For a moment, the girl was a little greedy for the warmth he gave her - inadvertently, Gwen's hand tightened. Raymond felt the touch from his hand and smiled softly:

"Actually, I've thought about this problem before." Gwen found that she kind of liked Raymond's lowered voice when telling stories. For the first time, she felt that his somewhat abrupt and awkward English accent was actually quite pleasant to the ears -

"At that time, I was first at Oxford and then at MIT. I felt that I was capable of anything and could definitely do something." Raymond looked into Gwen's eyes calmly, and even the waves in Gwen's eyes calmed down: "But in fact, I found that whether you participate in the system or stay in society, there is a set of rules that are not so glorious."

"Everyone is not perfect, so the society composed of everyone cannot be perfect. Imperfection is not wrong, but it will always become a variety of resistance, making you feel - God, no matter what I do, it seems like We are back to the starting point, where we can only ask helplessly——"

Raymond smiled and read out the words he often asked when he was young: "It has always been like this, is it right?"

"At that time, I felt like a clown. I remember one time, I was walking on the road and watching the street lights gradually turn on. My heart felt numb. I asked myself, what am I doing now? What are I fighting for? Why are I working hard? ? "What are you paying for?"

"You know what? The answer is no, I'm just relying on inertia to survive, that's all."

Gwen looked at Raymond smiling a little sadly, and the girl's heart also fell.

"I knew at that time that the boy in my heart was finally dead, and I was finally familiar with this society."

As Raymond spoke, he held Gwen's hand tighter - Gwen's hand finally became warm. He raised his head to meet the girl's eyes, and then saw his own smile in her aqua eyes:

"But I met a girl named Gwen Stacy."

"She has a dual identity, but it's really hard to live because of it. She plays the role that society has given her, and she plays the role of a superhero who is outside society and tries to save others."

"These two characters almost tore this slender girl apart, but she gritted her teeth and persisted. No matter how difficult it was, she could stand up again and again and become her optimistic and heroic self again. "

When Raymond said this, he looked directly into Gwen's eyes without any avoidance - the girl looked at his serious look and shyly avoided that gaze and lowered her head. Gwen didn't even notice that her face was getting hot, and she even didn't know how to place the raised corners of her mouth.

The girl suppressed the joy and joy welling up in her heart, lowered her voice and asked: "So I am so good in your eyes?"

"Of course." Raymond smiled, "You are Spider-Woman."

In the unprecedented busyness, crimes full of conspiracy, exhausting defense, weaving intelligence networks, dealing with social interpersonal relationships, in this moment of respite, Spider-Woman finally enjoyed the joy of Gwen Stacy.

"So-" Raymond said, "When I saw you, I knew that the boy in my heart had never died. He just hid himself and was just learning what to do quietly."

"He told me that for some things, doing them is half the battle. What the consequences are is not what you should consider when you do what you should do. People, it's meaningless to keep themselves safe for a long time."

"He told me that this is what he learned from a girl named Gwen Stacy."

"He also said that he felt that the girl named Gwen Stacy was one of the best and most powerful people!"

The warmth spread throughout Gwen's body, and the girl cheered up again. She took a deep breath and said softly, "Come closer."

"Ah?"

"I said, come closer." When Gwen repeated this sentence for the second time, her voice was very low, so low that she could hardly hear it herself.

Raymond, who was always calm on weekdays, was a little nervous. He seemed to realize what was going to happen, but he just mechanically moved his chair and moved closer to the girl.

Gwen took her hands back. The nervous girl held the quilt tightly. She took a deep breath and measured the distance between Raymond's chest and her head. She clenched her fists hidden in the quilt suddenly-Huh! Go for it!

The girl's head slowly tilted to the side, and when she was about to lean into Raymond's arms-

"Dong Dong Dong!"

"Excuse me, is Professor Raymond Xu here?"

A woman's voice came from outside the door. Gwen was so shocked that she quickly shrank back. Raymond also suddenly woke up from the sweetness of young men and women and realized that the person lying on the bed was his student. He lowered his head, coughed lightly, and completed the identity change: "I'm here, who are you?"

Then the professor stood up and straightened his clothes. He glanced at Gwen on the bed nervously, and the girl hurriedly pulled up the quilt and pretended to be weak and lay on the bed.

The door of the ward was pushed open, and Zhao Hailun, wearing a blue slim dress, walked in with a smile: "Professor Xu, leaving your guests at the airport is not the right way to entertain guests~"

Gwen couldn't help but cast her eyes on the woman who pushed the door open - seeing the oriental beauty with long black hair, the blonde girl herself couldn't help but feel pleasing to the eye.

"I got a call saying your student is sick, so I rushed to see you..." Zhao Hailun came over with a smile and put the gifts she bought on Gwen's bedside, but her eyes stayed on Raymond: "What a good teacher who cares about students."

"Dr. Zhao." Raymond seemed a little restrained in front of Gwen, "What are you doing?"

"I will be considered a member of your laboratory in the future!" Zhao Hailun pulled a chair and sat down at the head of Gwen's bed, "Your students may call me teacher in the future."

As she said this, Zhao Hailun glanced at the girl lying on the bed with deep meaning: "Since you have set an example of caring for students, of course I have to get closer to such a beautiful girl!"

After that, without waiting for Raymond, who was standing awkwardly, to answer, Zhao Hailun said to Gwen Extending her hand: "Hello, my name is Zhao Hailun, a new teacher in Professor Xu's laboratory."

The women's eyes met in an instant, and Gwen Stacy showed her grace: "Hello, Dr. Zhao, I am Gwen Stacy, Professor Xu's intern."

"Just an intern? I thought you were his graduate student. Professor Xu pays so much attention to you." Zhao Hailun took an apple, then turned back to Raymond and smiled: "Can you help me peel an apple? I'm not very good at it."

"I can." Seeing that Raymond was about to take the apple, the silent Gwen suddenly interrupted, "Peeling an apple is a very simple job, just leave it to me."

As she said, Gwen took the initiative to reach out to take it - Raymond was stunned for a moment, and then handed the apple handed by Zhao Hailun to Gwen.

The black-haired beauty doctor looked at the interaction between the young man and woman, raised her eyebrows, but did not get angry in the end: "Thank you, classmate Gwen."

She pronounced the word "classmate" very heavily, as if she was deliberately emphasizing it.

I will only play this trick once at most, and I assure my readers that real progress is within the plan!