Chapter 243 The Price of Magic (Two Chapters in One, 6k)

Cokeworth's Spider's End on a night in 1970.

The small town by the sewage river is full of dilapidated houses, along the streets of abandoned factories, there are street lamps in disrepair and dirty garbage bags blown by the night wind.

"Yo, yo, look who I saw, weird Severus, wearing his weird clothes." A little boy in a three-piece suit pointed at Snape and laughed to the children beside him laugh it out.

Snape pursed his lips, carrying his schoolbag, and walked across the corner in silence.

"Hey, hey, don't go." The group of children rushed out.

"You're kidding, Severus, we're kidding." The little boy looked sincere, "How about making friends?"

Snape froze for a moment, his eyes lit up, and he looked up at him.

"Listen, although you are not good at study or personality, but you are cool enough, we need a friend like you." The little boy put his hands on his companion's shoulders and looked at Snape with a smile, " There is a party tomorrow night, how about you come too."

Snape's heart was moved, he looked at the group of people with some hope, "I..."

"Hahahaha." The little boy suddenly laughed, "The premise is..."

"The premise is that you have to wear a normal dress, hahaha."

"..."

Is this humiliating? But they look very enthusiastic. This is sarcasm, right? But they seem to really want to invite themselves.

Snape looked down at his clothes, finally fell silent for a long time, and walked past him with his mouth pursed.

His head was in a mess, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Finally, he came to the deepest corner of the alley, a house with a strange attic.

Looking up, the attic made of all kinds of broken wood is really weird, it looks like a witch's crooked hat. Such a house will not look out of place in this alley, because there are traces of random construction everywhere.

This place is too dilapidated, and no one wants to take care of it anymore.

Pushing open the door, he came to the stairs leading upstairs from the cramped pile of groceries. Snape was about to go upstairs when he heard his parents arguing again.

He was silent for a long time, pulled out a delicate-looking chair from the pile of groceries, and curled up on it.

These chairs not only witnessed the glory of the city decades ago, but also the peak of his father's career, the famous Tobia Snape household merchant.

"Magic! Magic! You only know magic all day long!" Father's roar was full of drunkenness, "The business was so little back then, why didn't I see you help me with magic!"

Then came the mother's sobs, "No, no, Tobias, the magic I learned is not for this. What you're talking about is black magic, and it's not allowed."

"Haha." My father sneered, "If you are not allowed, you are the one who behaves and behaves, then you deserve to live in this kind of shabby place and endure this shabby life!"

"If you are like this, you might as well not know magic! What a joke, you are still a witch like this! What kind of magic do you learn!"

"No!" screamed the mother, "don't tear my spellbook, Tobias, I know, you're drunk, don't do that."

Crash.

I don't know what happened again, it was the sound of glass breaking.

His father's roar, his mother's sobs, and the dim light from the stairs made Snape, who was curled up on the chair, feel more like he was in the dark.

Before he knew it, he fell asleep like this.

No one has time for him, there are only quarrels, quarrels, and quarrels in the grown-up world.

Finally, as a ray of sunlight came in through the window, passing through the gaps of the random piles of groceries, it reflected on Snape's face.

he woke up.

He hugged his legs blankly, his head was blank.

Soon, there was a noise upstairs, the stairs creaked, and my father came down with a heavy carpenter's box on his back.

"Hey boy, do you like magic?"

Snape shook his head.

"very good."

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After hastily eating the bread that his mother hurriedly made with magic, Snape looked at his mother's red eyes and remained silent for a long time.

He couldn't understand the world of adults. It was a person with such a big difference in worldview. Yes, witches and Muggles seemed to be people from two worlds. In the quarrel tomorrow, either the father smashed the mother's Gobstone chessboard, or the mother excitedly released magic and hurt the father.

In this way, even barely maintain a family.

They were so unsuitable and so in love with each other that one day they were even discussing whether to have another child while they were still young.

Snape couldn't understand the brain circuits of adults.

Today is the weekend, and he came to the park a little glumly.

"Did they fight again?" asked a cute little girl.

Snape raised his head in astonishment, and smiled. This was the only time he smiled in the past two days, and the smile was extraordinarily bright, "Lily."

Lily Evans, a little girl from the same small town, has a good family background, but she never dislikes herself because of her origin.

Getting along with Lily was a ray of light in his gloomy childhood, it was so easy and joyful.

Lily would tell him about the strange abilities that happened to her, and Snape would comfort her that it was a magical riot, and then use a few words from his mother to tell him the beauty of the wizarding world in an exaggerated tone.

"Do you like magic?"

"certainly!"

"Me too!" Snape laughed.

But happiness is always short-lived.

Petunia appeared, a jealous and mean woman, leaping from behind a tree.

"Are you wearing your mother's clothes?"

The woman's words were always so harsh, which deeply hurt Snape's heart. He looked at Lily with some fear, hoping that she would not think the same way.

Although it is true that, yes, the family is poor, he just wears his mother's old clothes.

Lily's eyes were full of this sister, and she didn't pay attention to Snape's pain at all.

She is always like this, especially caring about this sister. And this elder sister is always like this, as soon as she appears, she wants to say something that will hurt Snape, so many times the good times will end in unhappiness.

Snape looked at the world sadly, with resentment in his heart.

Wow~

The branch fell on Petunia's shoulder, and she staggered back, crying.

"You did it?"

"No." Snape was a little unconvinced, but he couldn't help thinking, maybe this is the magic power to help him take revenge?

"It's you!" Lily looked very angry, "It's you who hurt her!"

She ran out of the woods after her sister's figure, leaving Snape dumbfounded to defend, "I didn't..."

There's none?

Snape remembered that once when his mother was angry, the scissors on the shelf flew out by themselves and stabbed his father in the stomach. The magic power really moves with the heart.

He remembered that his mother was crying and cured his father with a potion called white moss, begging him not to die.

On the contrary, the father didn't look too angry, he just asked, "Didn't you be able to recover by casting a spell before?"

"That's an anti-curse, and it's only effective when used on magic damage."

Snape remembered the time when his father bled so much, it was the closest to death, he grabbed his hand vigorously, and ordered, "I know you will still learn magic in the future, don't lie to me .Listen, you must learn magic with counter-curse, which is a means of harm with regret medicine, which is much better than guns."

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Time flies, and in a blink of an eye they have entered Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

Snape thought he had finally found a big family that recognized him and had a lot of his kind, but he didn't.

The students here are worse than those in the small town. Discrimination is everywhere. Those boys and buddies look down on everything like a high-level person, making him so ugly, poor, and lonely.

Even if the children in the small town understand the ways of the world, why do the people here become so unscrupulous after they understand magic?

Especially the students of Gryffindor College, they used the name of the conflict between the two colleges to humiliate themselves so without any psychological burden.

But, at last, he, Snape, wasn't that bad kid anymore.

He was so fit to be a wizard, he showed enough talent in herbs, potions, spells.

Life tells us that if we can't change the world, we can change ourselves.

If the world is full of discrimination chains, the only thing we can do is to climb to the top of the discrimination chain.

Don't be the layer that gets hurt, be the layer that hurts people, even when we don't mean it.

This is not just a school for young people, it is the epitome of the wizarding world. After leaving this school for just a few years, it will be the wizarding world. Snape understands it better than anyone else. The fierce competition in life has long started from here .

He began to not hesitate to show his excellence, and finally, the group at the top of the discrimination chain accepted him.

Take the initiative to recruit him.

Evan Rozier took him to a classroom belonging to the student club in the castle, and he met the senior Lucius Malfoy who was the prefect.

Wilkes put a lot of documents in front of him, and Bellatrix Black asked him with a smile, "Do you want to see more powerful black magic?"

Of course, I aspire to be strong.

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The process of learning black magic was not very pleasant. Although Snape seemed to be particularly good at it, he could always break through the inherent theories and figure out some novel and interesting spells with ease.

Everyone in the small group marveled at his wisdom and was happy to bring more magic books from the family to share with him.

This kind of extremely valuable knowledge of the wizarding world can no longer be found anywhere except in the restricted section of the school library, which seems to never be touched.

This was the best chance to change your life, Snape knew it.

After all, relying on my own hard work, relying on my hard work to bloom my excellence, little by little, I created a look that is needed by others and has value. This is the situation I bought.

have to cherish.

Pure blood supremacy? All right, you say yes. Discriminate against Muggles? Well, anyway, Gryffindor, who has the most Muggle wizards, bullied himself a lot.

Accept their theories, this is the price of learning advanced magic.

Anyway, no matter what legitimate study club or group it is, it's all the same, everyone does this, and Snape can accept it.

He only has one request, Lily is a Muggle, but whoever dares to humiliate her, don't blame him for turning his face and denying others.

Extremism and compromise, in fact, have never been two sides, because it contains dirty politics.

Everyone gave him enough respect. After all, he is getting better and better, and he has quietly walked ahead of these people.

We are all smart people and know what kind of judgment to make.

Lineage theory? That's just a means to maintain privileges, not a means to make enemies. The smarter you are, the dirtier your mind will be.

Snape saw it clearly, as long as the benefits were big enough, getting Lucius to marry a Muggle was just a word, as long as the benefits were big enough, you can see if he would talk about pure-blood pride.

It's just a big banner, so let's talk about it.

The world is what it is, less dark, less light.

Except naive Gryffindors.

And it just so happens that Lily is that naive Gryffindor.

Snape hoped that Lily could understand him, but it was destined to be difficult. Lily was different from him, she was born with good fortune, even if she didn't become a wizard, she was a proud little princess when she returned home, she didn't care much about magic.

Yes, don't think that only pure bloods discriminate against Muggles, Muggles even discriminate against the whole wizarding community.

Thinking about these wizards who seem to have lived in the last century, it can be said that freaks and monsters are very polite compared to calling primitive people.

Ps: Petunia's husband is this kind of person. Just a middle-class executive, his life is better than that of the oldest pure-blood family, except that there are few elves in the family as slaves. But things like slaves make people despise the life of primitive people even more.

And all these all-round differences...

It seemed to be the beginning of all nightmares.

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When that day came, James surrounded Snape with a group of people, hung him upside down with the fuchsia he invented, and took off his pants in front of countless people in the school...

Snape, who was furious, scolded a very humiliating 'mudblood'.

Annoyed and furious, Lily scolded a very humiliating 'snot man'.

Snotty, snotty, these are the words of the Gryffindor group to humiliate him, so Lily has already thought so, right?

No one knows what kind of internal psychological construction Snape went through, and finally he searched and searched for Lily to apologize.

But it was useless. This was not a matter of a swear word, but the completely irreconcilable positions of the two behind the swear words.

It can only be said that he met the wrong person at the wrong time, and when he met Lily, he missed his life.

Snape is a smart man, but he is not good at emotional matters, but it is precisely because of his smartness that he is more stubborn.

The sand that can't be grasped by the palm of your hand...

Then you have to grasp it even harder and squeeze it into the flesh and blood.

Countless cases of powerful wizards tell us that when we live inside of someone who tortures us every day, our magic will become extremely powerful.

Grindelwald is so.

So is Dumbledore.

So did Snape.

When the magic power and emotions were completely integrated, Snape easily entered an unprecedented level. No one knew that it only took one day for him to invent the 'Shadowless Curse'.

No one knew that the anti-curse was invented earlier than this spell.

This is what the father taught.

Any power with remorse is good.

Even black magic.

Although the old man with a scruffy beard was rescued by white moss, he quarreled with his mother lively and vigorously, living like a bedbug in the gutter.

Of course, since the school, the top small group, planned to follow in Voldemort's footsteps, Snape, who had already gained enough benefits, sent his parents out of the country extremely cunningly.

Give them the affluent and relaxed living conditions they long for, maybe in that environment, they should no longer quarrel over the difficult life, maybe they will give birth to a younger brother or sister?

Who knows.

After all, Snape, who likes self-mutilation, cruelly used potions to completely wash away most of his memories of his parents, and no one can find their traces by himself.

Nor can Voldemort, he has this confidence.

On the road to become powerful magic, the price is always so shocking.

This kind of magic that comes from emotions, the magic that controls everything from the mind, made Snape deeply understand a truth.

——Wizards are not gods, wizards are devils.

Muggle perception is correct.

The devil should be tied to a wooden frame and burned.

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Mind, magic, magic, it's a frightening set of recipes.

When everything is calm, we can easily use magic to manipulate everything and make everything follow our will.

But ah...

When the flaws in our hearts are exposed, the magic power will become a devil, which in turn will erode everything.

Snape sometimes envied those simple-minded people. Their stupid thinking could not interfere with magic at all, and they could choose the path that least affected themselves.

Bravery, love, hate, protection, killing...

Only someone with a complicated mind like him can easily go to the deep realm of magic and touch the devil's realm with ease.

But this also means that the devil is watching him all the time.

Is black magic dangerous?

Do not!

Yes magic is dangerous!

The moment Lily fell into Potter's arms completely, this intense and painful emotion instantly inspired a lot of magic.

Emotions lead to more magic.

Magic just eats up more emotion.

Unknowingly, Lily, black magic, merged into one body in the magic power.

He also thought about giving up, who didn't have a first love that ended without a problem when he was young, but no, the magic power that has been fused together does not allow it.

The magic power could not tolerate his betrayal, quietly devoured his heart, and quietly changed his heart.

He could only savor the emotion that brought him strength and pain at the same time, day after day, year after year.

The more tortured, the stronger.

Until, the moment Lily died.

It stands to reason that losing Lily brings powerful magic power, and completely losing Lily should bring more powerful magic power, but it doesn't. (The phrase was not his idea.)

His magic stopped completely.

The torment in his heart also stopped.

his heart...

There is nothing left.

This seemed to be the most malicious mockery of fate.

This is magic, powerful magic, terrible magic, disgusting magic, terrible magic.

But if the father asked him again.

"Hey boy, do you like magic?"

He will nod firmly, "Hmm!"

As for why, because of magic, because of Lily.

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Did Snape really love Lily, of course!

Do you really love so heartbreakingly, of course!

Is there a relationship affected by magic? have!

Is it because of the magic power that love is so heartbreaking?

Answer: I don't know!

Yes, although it is a bit cruel to say that, as if to say, oh, Snape, your love is not faithful, your love is not pure.

But, how can human emotion be defined by a simple mental activity!

Magic power relies on emotions, amplifies emotions, smelts emotions, and counteracts emotions. Wizards are creatures that cannot be analyzed independently of magic power.

After all, wizards are magical creatures.

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The time-turner led Anton to follow the memory all the way, and came to the process of Snape's repeated attempts to save Lily.

Once, again, and again.

After every despair, there is a stronger magic power and a crazier plan.

But without even one success, everything seems to be doing useless work.

Except that he himself becomes stronger.

It's even hard to call this more powerful magic power powerful.

Snape's black magic has even reached the extremely deep realm step by step, reaching the realm of figures like Dumbledore and Voldemort.

But the price is also terrible.

If a wizard is a combination of humans and magic, then Snape is the degree to which magic is about to swallow humans.

If magic is the display of a wizard's mastery of magic power, then Snape is the degree to which he is completely controlled by magic power.

But the practice of saving Lily is still going on.

This is even a bit like some kind of earth-bound spirit creature with obsession, but the place of binding is time.

Anton watched all this in silence.

Snape used his own experience to teach him a lesson, telling him what is the price of magic.

All the memories of the past quietly surfaced. He watched other people's stories and savored his own way of learning magic.

The wizard is the god, and the will commands everything. (Old Wizard Fiennes)

Only a lunatic can become a wizard, and shortcomings make firmness. (voldemort)

Desire makes everything. (Professor McGonagall)

Knowing what you want is more important than exploring magic. (Rozier)

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These words, at first taste, are that wizards must be clear-eyed and firm in their beliefs.

But looking at Snape, Anton had a deeper understanding of what a wizard is.

A wizard's mood affects magic. The wizard's magical emotions are also affecting himself. Snape's black magic started because of Lily, went out because of Lily, and now is crazy because of Lily, they have been completely integrated together.

It was no longer simply because of love to describe Snape's behavior.

Anton even thought of Snape's doe. Apart from love and protection, that thing was a reflection of the deepest emotions in the wizard's heart, and it was also a shackle.

Our desire for magic has created a Patronus, and magic locks us with this Patronus.

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Anton turned to look at Dumbledore, "Is this the essence of magic?"

Dumbledore just shook his head sadly, "This is the price of having magic."

The Snape in front of him, the Snape who was not tortured by Lily's death, how could he imagine it like himself.

Tom always said that he saw his own shadow in him, so he was so wary of him. In fact, Tom really misunderstood, Dumbledore never felt that way, he really just didn't like this child.

Only Snape, a child, longed for magic, eager to follow the devil to change the world, and was finally imprisoned by the death of his beloved woman for a lifetime...

This is my real shadow.