Chapter 1453 [Updated on September 25] I Will Never Wrong Myself Again

At this moment, the anger and grievance that had been accumulated for a day erupted like a volcano, out of control.

Ruoyin just fell to the ground, didn't cry, she just shed tears.

Soon, Banmei came in.

Seeing Ruoyin fall to the ground, Banmei supported her and sat back on the chair.

Ruoyin just hugged Banmei's waist, buried his face in Banmei's waist and wept.

As if coaxing a sister, Banmei held her in her arms, stroking her hair with one hand.

"Banmei, I want to leave him." She muttered choked up, but it was not angry words, but from the bottom of her heart.

Ruoyin has seen Banmei's loyalty all these years, so she speaks the truth.

She desperately needs someone to confide in.

She really really felt wronged.

These days, she has paid so much for him, but he doesn't trust her at all.

The former fourth master would give her enough trust.

Even if she was framed by concubines in the harem, and a man approached her, the queen mother would wrong her.

But he trusted her from beginning to end.

It is not an exaggeration to say that there is unconditional trust.

He always said that he believed in her fairness in managing the chores of the harem.

Especially after he came to the throne, once during Chinese New Year, Er Gege publicly said that her aunt treated the emperor's heir harshly, and he said, I believe you.

In front of the Mongolian kings and civil and military officials, William presented her with a red diamond pendant, and he also said, I believe you too.

On the birthday of the queen mother, Nian planted her to frame the emperor's heir. He opposed the ministers, concubines, and even the queen mother, but he still said, I believe in you.

Over the years, what he told her the most was to believe her.

But now, he doesn't trust her at all, not at all!

No matter how many difficulties and ups and downs they have experienced in the past, their hearts are still together.

Now, she feels so vulnerable between them.

It seems that it can't stand a little wind and rain.

In the past, he gave her a sense of spiritual security.

Later, mentally and emotionally, he gave her a full sense of security.

Now, he can't give her a sense of security.

It only gave her endless anxiety and a sense of crisis.

With trust and a sense of security, then staying by his side, no matter what happens, as long as he is there, she will not be afraid.

But if she doesn't even have the most basic trust, then why is she insisting on it?

Waiting to die?

Before he trusted her so much, she was on the brink of death several times.

Without his trust, the consequences would have been unimaginable.

The harem is a place where fish and dragons are mixed, and everyone has good acting skills, but lacks the emperor's trust.

Whoever framed it would be an abyss.

"Your Majesty, you can't just say this kind of nonsense." Banmei looked around after reminding Ruoyin, carefully looking around.

"I'm not talking nonsense, I'm serious."

At this moment, Ruoyin really thought of running away.

Escape from him, escape from this queen status that makes her breathless.

Think back to the years when she came to Daqing.

When he was in the residence, he bore the title of Fujin, but actually lived a miserable life.

Honor the royal parents-in-law.

You must have a good relationship with your sister-in-law.

The next step is to take care of the palace properly.

She also has to serve the fourth master and extend the heirs for the royal family!

When giving birth to elder brother, he was framed by others.

Later in Yuanmingyuan, life was a little easier.

But the fight among the women in the backyard never stopped.

Then, to the Forbidden City.

The Queen's name is so beautiful, everyone thinks that she is infinitely beautiful, graceful and luxurious, and enjoys endless glory and wealth.

But only she knows that there are too many people peeking at this position.

The past few years in the palace were also the most tiring days for her.

Think about it carefully, was there ever a time when you were not tired after beating her to the Qing Dynasty?

Being wronged, thinking about the overall situation, he gritted his teeth and swallowed it.

I'm not happy with fourth master, I want to accommodate everything and be a virtuous wife.

It is normal for the beauties in the emperor's harem to cut off the beard in the harem. Watching him being cut off, you have to pretend that it doesn't matter and pretend to be magnanimous.

When a concubine is pregnant, she wants to reward her with a smile. This is the attitude that a royal wife should have.

The mother-in-law can't figure it out, as a junior, you can't go beyond the rules, you can't be rude, you have to kneel and be filial, serve tea and water, and serve filially.

There are countless things like this...

Throughout the year, I don’t know what I’m busy with, and it’s more than ten years in the blink of an eye.

For more than ten years, she swallowed her anger and walked on thin ice, never really being herself.

I have always wanted to be a responsible woman in the Qing Dynasty.

Be a good daughter of the Ulanara family.

Be a good wife to fourth master.

Be a good mother to my brothers.

However, she seems to have forgotten how to be herself.

who is she.

her character.

her dream.

It has long been worn away in the years, and it has been forgotten.

Who is she doing this for and why?

Isn't it for the fourth master, for the peace of the harem!

Now she thinks clearly.

From now on, she, never live like this again!

Never live like this again! ! !

When Banmei heard that Ruoyin said she was serious, she fell silent.

Probably because she could hear the determination and sadness in Ruoyin's words, after a moment of silence, she said loyally and gently, "It doesn't matter what decision the empress makes, as long as the empress is happy, the servant will always follow you."

Ruoyin: "Well, I don't want to wrong myself again."

She no longer cares about his happiness.

As long as you are happy and happy.

If she sacrificed her ego, she got a happy life.

Well, she felt it was all worth it.

But now, she is not happy at all.

As a foodie who loves food the most, she no longer has that sense of happiness in the face of food, and her appetite has been greatly reduced.

She slept so well that she fell asleep as soon as she touched the pillow, but she started to suffer from insomnia.

When he was in Suzhou and Ningbo, he heard fourth master's promise, and once fantasized about a better life in the future.

But the reality gave her a heavy blow.

Yes, they are empresses, how can they live freely like ordinary people.

At first, she joked why the original owner couldn't figure out why he was suffering from depression.

Now, she understands.

If this continues, she is afraid that she will follow in the footsteps of the original owner.

Hehe, get rid of his rules, shackles, and restraints!

She will come as she pleases in the future.

What's the point of life if a person can't be happy.

"But empress, have you ever thought about the consequences of offending the emperor?"

"If you annoy him, at best you will throw me into the sidelines, or at best, you will lose my post. It's just right, so I don't have to face him."

Anyway, she didn't bother with this post who brought her so much pain.

But no matter what, fourth master will not take her life.

It doesn't matter because she is the mother-in-law of the three elder brothers.

There is also the Ulanara family as the backing.

"Then should we contact Lord Admiral and Lord Wuge?" Banmei suggested.

Ruoyin shook his head without hesitation: "No need, let's use the money ourselves and cultivate a group of useful servants in private. In addition, before leaving, I have to take care of some things."

She didn't want to use the Ulanara family to escape.

In this case, she is freed, and the whole family will have to punish the nine clans.