Chapter 964 How Ridiculous

In the past three days, Han Litong had not entered the underground palace.

She had been thinking about the life she had lived over the years, wondering whether her self-righteous love was true, whether she really fell in love with Feng Xi, or whether she felt more guilty towards him.

She discovered that she really didn't know.

She thought that after he left, she finally fell in love with him, even more deeply and caringly than she fell in love with that person back then. She thought that was it.

But after all these years, he was still not in her life.

She couldn't help but ask herself, what on earth was she doing?

If there is anyone who treats her best in this world, there is no doubt that it must be her brother Fengxi. But she never truly cherished his affection, until in the end, he finally had no feelings for her anymore. The words he said before his death were especially clear to her recently. If there is an afterlife, let's not meet each other again.

If there is an afterlife, let’s not meet each other again.

The moment he closed his eyes and lost his life, she felt that her world was darkened. From now on, she was really helpless.

She was so self-righteous and stubborn, and got nothing in exchange for it.

She thought she had sacrificed herself to protect the people, but now probably no one remembers her.

And the person she once loved deeply was already dead.

She felt that she had nothing left. In the end, her brother Fengxi who loved her the most died and no longer loved her.

She had thought countless times in the past few days, what was the point of being immersed in these irreparable pain and feelings? Just like Han Jing said, what's the point of her not letting him go and not letting herself go?

No one harmed her, she harmed herself.

She was too proud and self-righteous. She always thought she could do anything, but in the end she did nothing.

Even her two biological daughters have no affection for her because she has never fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother. Even Qingjue, who grew up beside her, she has never hugged or hugged her. He gave her the slightest bit of motherly warmth. She was not a qualified mother. She didn't care about this in the past, but when she saw Han Jing and Su Yaozheng getting along, her heart was really hurt.

She thought that she didn't need anything, that she was lonely, that she was not favored by God, and that she stayed in her own world to enjoy herself, never thinking about why she ended up where she was now.

Who does she love? She really didn't know.

"I know, even if I apologize to you, even if I admit my mistake, it won't make much sense." Han Litong walked to Feng Xi's coffin and stared at Feng Xi's face quietly, but her words It was said to Han Jing.

"I admit that as a mother, I have never loved you, nor Jue'er. I once thought that all family ties are like this, it is responsibility, not emotion. I took my own life and blindfolded myself , I haven’t taken a serious look at the world.”

"I have been using superficial glitz to cover up all real emotions, forgetting that the human heart is the softest thing."

It was as if she naively thought that the mutual love between her and Ninth Brother was an earth-shattering love that would last until death. How ridiculous.