One Thousand and Sixty-Four Letting Go, I Can’t Do It! (II)

The happiness she thought she had grasped collapsed into ruins in an instant, and in the end, only a mess remained.

This feeling was no different from being slapped hard in the face...

It was painful and unbearable.

Ye Yan's chest seemed to be torn apart alive.

She was begging him to let go...

She was begging him...

"...How long do you need?" He could give her time, but that was just time. It was impossible for him to really let go!

Shu Nian didn't say anything. How long? Even she herself didn't know how long she needed.

Some scars are always not so easy to heal; and some things are always not so easy to forget.

She only twisted Ye Yan's hand, thinking that Ye Yan would struggle, but this time, he suddenly let go. The long fingers slid from her wrist, leaving only a coolness.

The empty feeling on her wrist made Shu Nian's heart ache for a moment, and she felt that the air around her was much colder...

If...

If there is really no Ye Yan in her future life, will her world become as gray and bleak as before?

Will it become like a pool of stagnant water, unable to stir up any ripples?

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After taking a shower and changing clothes, Shu Nian came out, her face was not much better than before. She walked out of the room and saw Ye Yan sitting on the sofa in the living room. He was very quiet, very quiet. From her angle, she could only see his side face, with a heavy haze.

As if he noticed that she came out, he came back to his senses and looked up at her.

The two of them looked at each other, and Shu Nian's nose was sour again. She was afraid that she could not control her emotions, so she turned her face away, walked over, and sorted out the books scattered on the sofa.

When everything was completely packed, Ye Yan stood up and said, "I'll take you."

It was not to keep him.

But to see him off.

In his low tone,

there was no negotiation. Moreover, as he spoke, he had already walked to the entrance and changed his shoes.

Looking at the back, Shu Nian's lips trembled, but in the end he said nothing, just holding the book and quietly following.

The rain was still falling. On such a night, there were basically not many people coming in and out of the community, and the surrounding atmosphere seemed particularly quiet, so quiet that it made people depressed.

Ye Yan held an umbrella, and Shu Nian walked on his right.

There was a gap between the two people. It was obviously only a few centimeters away, but it seemed like there were thousands of mountains and rivers between them, and it was difficult to cross.

It's like a wound in the heart...

Once it's broken, it's always difficult to sew it up again.

The rain gradually got heavier, and the umbrella was not big. Ye Yan's figure was tall, and an umbrella could only accommodate him alone. Moreover, he deliberately left most of the space for Shu Nian, so after a few steps, his shirt was soaked by the rain. Shu Nian raised his eyes and noticed it. He was slightly startled for a moment, and his body deliberately moved out.

Obviously, she wanted to make more space for him, but in Ye Yan's eyes, such a small move seemed like a disgusted avoidance.

His eyes darkened, and he raised his hand to grab her shoulder and pulled her back.

He was very strong.

Shu Nian could even feel that the big hand on her shoulder seemed to be clasped into her shoulder blade.

"No need to hide so quickly!" Ye Yan's voice was cold, which was his armor after being injured, "... I won't do anything to you again."

After that, he didn't stop and took his hand back. He clenched it into a fist and hung it at his side, very tight.

Obviously...

He misunderstood.

Shu Nian knew.

His lips moved, trying to explain, but in the end, he stopped talking.

After that, the two of them didn't say anything along the way. The short distance was quickly covered. When they arrived at the bottom of the community where Shu Nian lived, Shu Nian still didn't look up at him, "I'll go up first."

Shu Nian walked away, not daring to stay any longer.

Ye Yan's heavy eyes locked on the figure, watching her getting farther and farther away from him, watching her becoming less and less clear in his eyes, he suddenly threw away the umbrella and took a few steps forward.

Shu Nian vaguely heard footsteps following behind him, and they were getting more and more urgent and heavier.

Is it him?

Instinctively looking back, Ye Yan's slender figure suddenly enveloped him. The next moment, before she could come to her senses, he had already held the back of her head with one hand and her waist with the other hand, not giving her any chance to move. The passionate, repressed, and painful kiss came straight at her like a storm.

Shu Nian's mind was blank, and his breath was full of the clear smell of his body, with the salty and astringent taste of raindrops.

His lips were swollen and painful from his kiss.

She struggled in pain, but he seemed to be unable to feel her resistance at all, as if only a deeper kiss and a stronger demand could slightly alleviate the strong sense of powerlessness in his heart.

"Ye Yan..." When Shu Nian was almost unable to breathe from the kiss, she finally found a chance to break away an inch and called him, her voice breaking.

Ye Yan then withdrew from her lips. His eyes were filled with a layer of scarlet, as if he was trying his best to restrain himself and not continue.

"Only one week!" Ye Yan gently stroked her cheek with his thumb, but his words were very heavy, too heavy to be refuted, "After a week, no matter whether you are calm or not, you must come back. Come back to me!"

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Shu Nian lay woodenly on the bed all night.

The next day, when she got up, it was still dawn. She touched her phone and took a look, then she remembered that it had run out of battery. After plugging it in, the phone lit up, and she leaned against the head of the bed woodenly, looking out the window and waiting woodenly.

After the phone turned on automatically, messages kept coming in.

She took it and took a look, most of them were reminders of missed calls. There were also some messages from Xiong Wanting. She obviously forced Hu Yang to get the details, and every message was full of worry.

Shu Nian looked at those words of comfort, and remembered that she had once lay in a pool of blood so desperately, and was pushed into the emergency room so helplessly...

In the end, she was so helplessly forced to choose to remove the fallopian tube...

At that time, she was only 18 years old. The ridicule of classmates and teachers, the tragedy of the family, and the hopelessness of the future almost pushed her to the brink of death at any time.

The source of all this tragedy came from Hu Yang and others.

And Ye Yan...

Ye Yan was actually one of them...

Shu Nian felt that she might have just had a dream, a nightmare. She hoped that everything would return to the way it was when she woke up. However, reality was cruel after all. Just like when she was on the operating table that year, she also hoped that everything was a dream, but the cold scalpel had already made her sober - all this was not only not a dream, but... she could never go back to the past...