Chapter 383 I Seem to Have Lost the Ability to Love

I like you, I don't care who you like, I don't care if you have me in your heart, but you can only be mine.

What do you want the heart but not the body, or the body but not the heart? He wants both.

If he can only choose one of the two, then it must be the body without a doubt.

If you want the body, the person is around, water drips through the stone, time wears away little by little, sooner or later you will be worn into mine.

Yue Tingfeng is different from other people, different from everyone Yan Qingsi has met, she doesn't know how to describe Yue Tingfeng.

Sometimes he is like a child, sometimes like a ruffian, but sometimes he can help her carry everything. She hated him and used him, and now... she doesn't know how to say how she feels about him.

Yan Qingsi has been holding on to the defense line in her heart. She clearly understands her situation, knows what she should do, and knows what she will face after everything is done.

She will not have a good end...

She is not qualified to love others, nor dare to accept the love of others.

Facing Yue Tingfeng's eyes, Yan Qingsi felt mixed emotions. If she was just a simple office worker, just an ordinary girl, how great it would be!

Yue Tingfeng saw the struggle in Yan Qingsi's eyes, and her heart was in shock and torture.

Yue Tingfeng gritted his teeth, and he was determined not to interrupt her. She almost wanted to say: Forget it, don't say it if you don't know how to answer.

But he thought about He Lanfang's New Year's goods, Qin Jingzhi, and Jin Xuechu, and then thought about it. Tsk... Damn it!

Yan Qingsi's hands tightly grasped the corners of her clothes, her palms were sweating, and her throat was burning.

Yan Qingsi wanted to see her heart clearly, but she couldn't see it. She seemed to have lost her heart, and that piece was empty.

Yan Qingsi panicked. For the first time, she showed panic in front of Yue Tingfeng. Her eyes were filled with indescribable fear, and her lips trembled slightly: "I... don't know, I seem to... I... may not know how to love others..."

Since witnessing her biological mother's death, Yan Qingsi bid farewell to her childhood at that moment. In her world, there was no transition from adolescence. She matured instantly in the blood and corpse of her biological mother.

At that time, she knew: I don't want others to love me, and I don't need to love others. I want to be strong, I want revenge, and I have to be indifferent and ruthless.

Because she is so humble and so insignificant, she can be crushed to death by anyone at will.

She dare not be moved, dare not have friends, she is afraid that if she is not careful, she will be doomed.

When a person is really indifferent and ruthless for a long time, perhaps, he really loses the ability to love others, because he can't find where his heart is.

Just like a habit, it can't be developed overnight, but once it is developed, it is difficult to change it.

Yan Qingsi is like this. In the past, she didn't think there was anything wrong with this. She thought it was good and she could ignore everyone.

But... now, when a person who is different from her tells her, I will give you my whole life, do you want it? It gave Yan Qingsi a strong shock, and she suddenly realized that she couldn't find her heart at all.

But...

Yan Qingsi's eyes were dry, and she had no tears to shed. She opened her mouth and said after a long while: "But I don't want to refuse, what do you say?"

Yes, she didn't want to refuse.

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