Chapter 882

I am the eldest princess of Dongchen Kingdom. I have several elder brothers in front of me, but I have no elder sister yet.

I grew up under the doting of my father and mother. I was smart since I was a child, and I was born with a golden key in my mouth.

My older brothers held me in their hands and it hurts, and I didn't have to worry about anything since I was a child.

However, everything changed when I was eight years old, and my concubine gave birth to another son.

The concubine mother puts all her thoughts on her son, she only has that son in her eyes, she dotes on him to the sky, and neglects me.

My father still likes me very much, because I am very pleasing to him, and because he loves my mother and concubine.

So it is more biased towards me and my younger brother. As my younger brother grows up, my older brothers don't like me as much as before.

Their relationship became more and more tense, even to the point of saber-rattling, my older brother and younger brothers wanted to be emperor.

Since then I have been living in misery. I am the apple of everyone's eye, but I haven't since.

Although I am the eldest princess, I am not the only princess. After me, one or two princesses will be born every year.

There are too many princesses in the palace, and the elder brothers all have their own younger sisters, so the father's favor has to be spread out.

Especially my mother and concubine, her son is all in her eyes, and there is no daughter like me.

Fortunately, I am a lucky person. I have a childhood sweetheart, a cousin named Cui Ruilu.

He is the son of our aunt Huang, and the cousin of all of us. He has often come to the palace to play with me since he was a child.

After everyone abandoned me one after another, he still treated me well like never before, which made me not feel so lost.

When I was thirteen years old, he asked my father to give us two marriages, and my father readily agreed.

And the emperor also promised me that as long as we get married, he will give me the princess mansion.

But after my concubine mother found out about this, my concubine mother was furious.

No matter what you say, you must marry me to General Chu, who is an important minister of the court.

I have never met him, let alone know him, so I don't want to marry, and my concubine forced me.

I wanted to complain in front of my father, but at that time, my father was already very disappointed with my mother and concubine.

He was even stricter with my five-year-old brother. Before the age of three, my father still loved my brother very much.

My mother and concubine cried, made trouble and hanged themselves three times, but the emperor ignored them, so I didn't dare to complain again.

Mother and concubine forced each other with death, but I finally compromised and agreed to marry General Chu.

I thought my cousin would fight for it, or tell my father or something, but he didn't.

He didn't force me, anyway, the imperial decree hadn't been issued yet, when I nodded and agreed to marry General Chu.

My cousin got married quickly, and I was also waiting to get married in the palace, and my mother and concubine wouldn't let me go out of the palace.

Cousin never came to the palace to look for me again, maybe he came to the palace every day, but he didn't come to play with me anymore.

The court struggle is cruel, and the road to power is full of blood and rain.

As the mother and concubine in the power struggle, she is even more disowned by her relatives, ruthless, and has blood on her hands.

For the sake of power, she can lay hands on anyone, including her own flesh and blood, and forcibly tore apart my "happiness".

When I was fifteen years old, I was ordered by my mother and concubine to marry General Chu. As early as two years ago, my cousin married a wife and now he has a son.

Before I married General Chu, I missed my cousin day and night and became ill, and I felt that I loved him more and more.

It may be a rebellious heart, or it may be the pain of not being able to love, anyway, I "love him" more than before.

After I got married, I didn't love my cousin anymore, it wasn't that I fell in love with the general.

It's because I found that my cousin is as gentle to his wife as he was to me before.

If what you give to me is the same as what you give to others, then I don't want it.

Love should be unique, not everyone can replace it.

The wind passes through the years, and I have some thoughts. It is a moonlit night on the spring river, and it is a boat full of clear dreams pressing down on the galaxy.

Although I don't like my cousin anymore, I haven't fallen in love with General Chu either.

After we got married, we treated each other as guests, and the following year, our first son was born.

In the next third year, my second son was born, and my husband guarded Yazhou all the year round.

We spend very little time together, and I am happy and relaxed, taking care of the general's mansion with my two sons.

Sometimes I wonder how I can live like a floating cloud, so that I can hear Buddhist music in mid-air.

The scriptures are torrent, and you can overlook the world of mortals, the prosperity of the world is in your eyes, and you are in love with the stunning beauty of the world.

It's not that I'm not greedy for the world of mortals, or that the relationship with the world of mortals is unfinished, but that my heart is like still water.

Most of the time, it is the wonderland of the Buddha's heart-to-heart meditation of "smiling with flowers".

In all appearances, right and wrong, feel the detached indifference, tranquility and open-mindedness.

So, in the fifth year of our marriage, I took my own initiative to help my husband take his cousin as a concubine.

My husband looked at me in disbelief, and then, without saying anything, he entered their new house.

He used actions to prove that he obeyed my words, but his disappointed eyes hurt my heart severely.

My heart, which was originally like still water, suddenly became rippling, and it was the first time I got angry at my servant.

Later, when his cousin became pregnant, she wanted to be pampered and made things difficult for me on purpose.

My husband said to her coldly: "Do you want to die? How dare you offend the princess?"

His cousin lost all confidence in an instant and cried heartbreakingly, but our husband couldn't coax her.

I helped him take a concubine, and he got married with his cousin in a fit of anger, and made his cousin conceive a child.

Before they consummated their marriage, I also conceived a daughter, and it was because I was pregnant that I helped him take a concubine.

Ever since my husband took a concubine, I have refused him to enter my room, and he has the backbone not to come in either.

So I beat and beat again, and he saw me beat and beat, and he never entered his cousin's house again.

He didn't enter my house either, so of course I didn't let him in, so he stayed at the border for several years.

All his patience was spent on me, and I'm not a piece of wood, how could I not feel it!

In my relationship, I don't really want much, but a heart that can favor me.

The most beautiful part of the relationship, isn't it because it's me, so all his special treatment is only given to me?

As the saying goes, good love means that after identifying a person, all the good things are only for that person.

My husband did it, but unfortunately I realized it too late. At that time, I realized that my husband loves me so much.

But there is already a third person between us, even though he hasn't returned home for many years.

Although my resentment towards him has not dissipated, I am usually very patient with my two sons and daughter.

Years later, when he came back, we didn't hug, and I didn't give him a good face.

I also got angry with him and threw the bowls and chopsticks while eating, making a crackling noise.

From time to time, yin and yang said strangely: "You are looking for your cousin, why are you looking for me?"

But he was not angry, but grinned silly: "Are you jealous? Have you finally regretted it?"

"I just regret it. At that time, I didn't know what love is. How did I know it would be like this?"

I yelled at him loudly and cried, that was the first time I cried.

General Chu looked at me with wide eyes, the meaning of those eyes is, you don't understand love?

Don't you love Cui to death?

I burst out instantly, "I'm so young, I don't know what love is. He is my cousin, and he said to marry me, so I agreed."

Husband hugged me: "Okay, you are still young and don't know how to love. It's my husband who is not good enough to teach you well."

I:……

This is all right!

He loves me humblely, but unfortunately I know it too late, I didn't understand until ten years after we got married.

We had a heart-to-heart talk, and to me, he was always a definite love, a sincere liking, and a blatant preference.

That night, I really experienced the joy of being a woman, happy physically and mentally...

At that time, I was twenty-five years old. In the previous ten years, I gave birth to two sons and one daughter.

For having a son, I am a kind of responsibility, and I have no other thoughts or feelings at all.

They were both born five years before they got married. I helped him take a concubine in that year, and we were no longer together.

And he stayed alone at the border for five years, and when we met again, we became true lovers.

Since we had a long talk, he knew that I fell in love with him too, and he happily hugged our nine-year-old son in circles.

His cousin's eyes were red with anger, and she became a monster more and more. I am a proud princess.

Since she was a child, she was supported by everyone and grew up. There is no room for her to act wild, so I want to divorce her.

That cousin was also very temperamental, and she was killed in a collision!

I was extremely guilty, but my husband comforted me patiently and said to me gently.

"It's fine to die like this, she deserves to die, she is the one who wants to die, if she is willing to leave our general's mansion, wouldn't it be good?

But she just wanted to come out to die. You can't blame me for this, so don't blame yourself. "

My husband said to his cousin's corpse again: "You can leave at ease, I will give you a beautiful funeral."

As I listened to his gentle words, I felt even more guilty.

When the cousin died, her son became a lonely family. The father didn't love him, but the mother who loved him was gone.

So I adopted him into my name, and our husband and wife love each other, and our love is even stronger.

Although the husband still has to be stationed in Yazhou, he will come back once or twice a year.

I have never tried not to go back once in five years, and I will be happy in the next few years.

For me, my husband obeyed my mother, concubine and younger brother, and helped him win over courtiers to help him ascend to the throne.

My elder brother has just sat on the throne, and I was named the eldest princess, and I have enjoyed a lot of glory for several years.

My husband listened to my mother and concubine, and took my thirteen-year-old little brother to the battlefield.

We have lived happily for several years, but unfortunately, my sixteen-year-old daughter died suddenly.

She was not married yet, and she passed away like this. I am in pain, and my husband is also in great pain.

Our husband and wife have been in love for many years, and we already have a tacit understanding, and we can tell what it means with just one look.

We know why our daughter died. My elder brother knew how to encourage my mother and concubine to force me to marry another when he was five years old.

Although the love between our husband and wife is as deep as the sea, I will not forgive his selfishness and self-interest.

Because my eldest brother has never respected me.

I don't like his willful behavior, so I became more and more alienated from him, until finally we became strangers.

And he doesn't know how to cherish it. My husband devoted himself to him, but he killed my daughter.

He thought that our husband and wife would not know, so he killed our daughter regardless of family affection.

My husband saw that I was in great pain, so he arranged a marriage for my eldest son.

My eldest son married my cousin's daughter, and it was my cousin who insisted on marrying my daughter to my son.

My husband is worried about which lady to find as his daughter-in-law, and he is happy to see his cousin so attentive.

So my daughter-in-law Jin Niang married in.

A pampered and pampered young lady, although she has no brains, she has a strong stomach.

The next year after entering the door, he helped us give birth to a big fat grandson, and my husband named him Chu Lixuan.

Although Jin Niang has no intentions, she has one good thing, that is, she obeys my advice.

She is not nice to others, but she respects her husband and me.

My eldest grandson is growing up slowly, and I am also losing weight day by day, because the gap between my elder brother and my eldest brother is getting bigger and bigger.

My husband and I are living like walking on thin ice. When we really wanted to disarm and return to the fields, the Nanman invaded again.

My husband, my two sons, and several grandchildren all died in that battle...

My eldest grandson also did not go home for two years after that battle, and finally defeated the Nanman with the last battle.

However, my eldest grandson is also disabled, and my elder brother wants to take this opportunity to exile our Chu family.

And I wanted to go back to the mountains twenty years ago, and our siblings still know each other well.

Our Chu family has a family heirloom jade pendant, which was given to the eldest daughter-in-law of all generations, Jinniang's hands and feet.

So, I didn't give it to her until my eldest grandson ordered Jiang Bilian, the eldest lady of the prime minister's mansion.

I directly gave it to her as a confidant, because I am very satisfied with her. Her piano, chess, calligraphy and painting rank first in the capital, and her beauty ranks first.

However, when we got married, the prime minister's mansion replaced a fool with my grandson. The prime minister is under one person and above ten thousand people, and it is the time when the glory is infinite.

And our Hou's Mansion has fallen, and we have become exiles, so we are not qualified to argue with the Prime Minister's Mansion.

I can only suffer from a dumb loss, yo ho, who knows, our family got a precious granddaughter-in-law.

He is capable of both civil and military skills, and his medical skills are beyond the sky. Take us out of the capital, and the better.

Our life is simply not too good, I live younger and younger, originally I was not in good health due to worry.

Later, it was well adjusted by my family Xinxin, and a group of us old guys still learn square dancing from her every day.

Happy like a fairy, eat well, play well, get whatever you want, it's just a pity that my husband is gone.

My cousin wrote to me several times, saying how much he loves me, and I wrote back to him in the words of my granddaughter-in-law, scumbag.

And my elder brother lives in anxiety all day long, all of this is his own fault.

My eldest grandson and Xinxin's couple trapped him in the capital, so he was allowed to move about on his three-acre land.

I don't want to give him another chance, and I won't give him any more chances.

The last time I saw him, I was the Empress Dowager Xuanyan Dynasty, and he was the Emperor of Dongchen Kingdom.

Undoubtedly, I was glamorous, he was in a mess, and we were relatively speechless.

I took my little brother and his true love with me, and my big brother was so angry that he vomited blood.

Because he has to pay the price.

He killed my daughter.

I will never let him go!

"Aren't you waiting for us to work hard for you again? You are responsible for all of this. You never care about family affection, but you still want to repay it?"

We left after we finished speaking proudly, leaving him alone in the wind, roaring...

I lived for many more years, and my great-grandchildren have grown up. My life was worthwhile. I passed away with a smile and no regrets.

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